yet another reason to not have kids?

"i think when the woman gets her period, and then the man goes over and has sex with her...im just guessing" that is a quote from my 7 year old cousin....ha....explaining sex and babbies to my 10 year old cousin today... they thought today is the day we should know about sex and babbies... so i was asked sooo many questions...i tried chaning the subject many times, and it finally worked after what felt like forever! even the 3 year old had imput...they are farmers so they have seen calves be born, and lucas said, "the baby comes out of the cows bum"...good grief....why do people have kids? they jsut get lice and wanna' know about sex:S:S ha...ok well maybe i still want them...but man....you thik lice are bad val....wait until the sex questions start....like "does the boys weinner go in the girls weinner"? ahhhhh what the heck do ya' say to that? i of course laughed and went and called my mother:S.

lice: a good reason to not have children.

well my aunts kids got lice. and since im home with them allll day long, i had to be the one picking dirty nasty little bugs and eggs out of their hair....how freaking nice for me. i don't even have kids yet...and sitll i had to pick lice. so, i smell. thats right i smell. like tea tree oil, it repels them. so i washed my hair in it. also....its killer on your hair, but at least i dind't get lice, and i am pretty sure i got rid of the kids. when i left tonight there wasn't a nit i could see...go me...super babysitter. so, i put olive oil, for 2 hours, then picked out bugs nad nits, and then washed it with dish soap and then with tea tree oil shampoo with extra drops added. them little nasty bugs had better be dead out of the kids hair...i did that 2 days in a row...oh how fun...joy! ok so, people who want to be parents someday....remember...lice are out there....so don't let your kids have friends....they jsut give them bugs. and remember how sad it is to hold a three year olds head under the faucet while he is balling his eyes out...and remember you ahve to pick bugs while he balls his eyes out....poor little fella's. ok, so maybe its still worth it to have kids....but it is pretty icky. i am home now though, and in a lice free zone, still smelling, and no longer picking bugs! for the record...rachel was right...they are the size of seseme seeds...ew. hope you all are doing well. :)

terrific job!

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the coolest job posting ever. i stumbled accross it while looking for a job...lol how hilarious!

so, do you ever get into a situation where you have to defend God, and you suddenly realize what a horrible hypocrit you are? yeah well that was me tonight. so in light of this situation, i ask for prayers for myself, and the person i was talking with, and i would like to leave you with these lyrics:


Kutless - Draw Me Close Lyrics
Draw me close to you
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear you say that I'm your friend
Help me find a way to bring me back to you
[Chorus:]
You're all I want, You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want,
Help me know you are near
You are my desire
No one else will do
Cause no one else
Can take you place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find a way to bring me back to you
[Chorus:]
You're all I want, You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want,
Help me know you are near

also please pray for my grandparents still. grandpa is in TO having an experimental drug because his cancer is back and he can't take anymore chemo, and my grandma could die any day i think....i mean i would guess her to have a month left, but...i don't know...they don't leave her alone anymore...so please pray for my family, and for their salvation. thank you.

update

well this week was fairly brutal. first off, my brother's girlfriend broke up with him. this was monday and he was just toatlly wrecked. he was balling his eyes out while laying on my mom's bed with my mom holding him. this was something i hadn't seen before....and its not like we don't know loss, a lot of our friends have died but i have never witnessed a reaction like this from him before. i of course balled my eyes out a lot. i love her so much and her 3 year old son, and i missed them the second i found out. they are now, back together. the breakup only lasted a couple of days, and they were back together friday evening. i have a feeling things will be better now than ever, because she is oging to talk to him instead of push him away wehn things aren't right. so then i got to stop crying and my blood pressure returned to normal. and today i got to see her and give her a big hug...man i love that girl. anyway, on wednesday we found out that my grandma only has maybe a month, or maybe more to live...not long anyway. the cancer had gone crazy in her and spread everywhere, including more on her liver. she is taking a chemo pill that will hopefully shrink the big ones enough to make her more comfortable so that she can die with a little less pain. that seems kinda' sucky to me...pretty freaking sad. anyway, things are looking a bit better here now, aside from my grandma. my grandpa will be taking some sort of experimental cancer drug in a couple weeks. he will be the first man in canada to get it so thats pretty cool. please keep them and us in your prayers. anyway i hope all your lives are going well. keep growing:) love you all.

thanks

thank you if anyone prayed.

prayer please

my family is going through some really difficult things right now...please pray for us...a lot...please, especially my brother who is 21, as well as my grandparents, thank you.

baby st john has arrived!

well julie had her baby! it was a boy of course, and i assume his name is still dradon. he weighed 10 pounds!!! they induced her yesterday morning cuz they knew he was goign to be big, and he just wasn't comming out so they did a c section last night after 10 sometime. its pretty exciting he is the first gret grandchild in our family. anyway i am at my aunt's house baby sitting, i'll prolly have more to update on thursday night when i get home. hope you are all doing well, and enjoying your summers.

summer fun

well, this summer is shaping up to be interesting if nothing else. grandma will be starting chemo soon i think, unless its too late. grandpa is starting his new drug, but first they are pulling out all his teeth. julie still hasn't had her baby, he is a week and a day overdue. i will be at jane's house for most of the summer....pretty much everyday, its supposed to be babysitting, but in reality its making breakfast and lunch for the kids and dinner for the whole family, cleaning, laundry, baking, and the last day i was there last week she handed me this itinerary for an expencive kids camp, and asked me to do all the things with her kids that they would have been doing at camp. :S 3 boys 3, 7, and 10. working there and living there all week is just crazy and it drains me of every bit of energy i have. except that, someone asked my mom if i would put my resume in at a restaurant here. so my mom said yes i would. so if i get this job i would be working there every day that i am not working at jane's likely. so basically i will be working 24 hours a days for 3-5 days a week, and then i will come home and go to work someplace else....is it just me or does this seem crazy? oh and before i forget, my aunt still hasn't paid me for the last week, and one day for the week before that, so i still have zero dollars. pretty sure this is going to be the worst summer ever. hope everyone else has time to take a shower and a deep breath, cuz i sure don't.

my cooking adventure

well today i got bored, and so i decided to make chicken curry. then of course i thought well....cant eat it without naan! so today i made chicken curry and naan! i had to make the curry with noe recipe cuz i couldnt find one i liked, but it turned out fabulous! a little spicey but i took one of my pills and some tums lol and after a lot of pain it eventually felt better LOL. i made so much but have no one to share with:( thats ok though. the point is i can make it and naan! lol next time i'll try roti! anyone else have any ideas? :) hope things are well with everyone:) my dad is doing well:) i am too. keep praying for my family please.

daddy update

well my dad is doing a lot better now. he is starting to deal with it, and doens't seem to be as upset, though he still thinks he can just not have it anymore:(. tonight i let him test my blood, it was scarey but i know it made him feel good so i did it. we got him some diabetic ice cream today too, so thats good. and the doctor said today that he doens't have to up his insulin dose. so he is doing it twice a day and 10 of whatever measurment it is. i found a bunch of recipes, so thats cool. please continue to keep him in your prayers, and the rest of my family, along with amanda and her dad. thank you all so much. and a special thank you to the person i didn't think read these, and thnak you for the call:) you are a good friend. its true what people say about when you go through hard times you find out who your true friends are, and so thank you pal:) i love you all(hugs).

my daddy.

well life as i know it is about to change again. today we found out my dad has type one diabetes. i don't even fully know what that means. all i know is that the doctor said he can't work today he has to come home, and that home care is comming this afternoon. i also know it means after i stab him a few times i guess i will stop crying at the sight of needles:(. please pray for my dad, he is very very very upset. for those of you who know him you know he is in tip top shape, and has very little body fat. i know that has nothing to do with type one, but it was at least feel like its justified if he was fat. just please keep us in your prayers. and pray that nothing else bad happens to us...this is getting crazy.

please also pray for my brother's gf amanda as her dad will be passing away soon.

well grandpa's cancer is back. so i guess that both of my grandparents each only have a couple months left. they are going to put my grandpa on a new drug from the states in 3 weeks...but yeah....they have have great success they say. its fairly depressing... but julie's baby will be born soon and that should lift some spirits. please keep praying for my family.

despite everything that is going on, i think i am doing fairly well. i feel like i am growing closer to God and am just doing well. i know He is in control.

julie and adam update

so, this morning i found out that good old walmart, that so many of you for some reason hate, has handed adam a check for over 10, 000$. this of course does not include cards of employees which surely will contain money and shopping cards. half of this money is the money they raised through there bbq, their shopping spree jar, their craft sale, and the other thing i forget what it was. the other half of this check came from walmart's head office who promised to match what walmart peterborough had raised. oh, as well as about 1000$ of it came from other walmart stores who jsut wanted to help out. walmart has also donated some furniture and other things to julie and adam. also, people have been dropping off everything that they need, and had before the fire to her mom's house, where they are staying for right now. to me it is only logical that they will use the money to put a down payment down on a house, or at least some of the money. this is because most of their things have been replaced, and those things that haven't been can be by family and friends. adam is back to work now i think, or will be starting monday, or sometime soon. your prayers are definately still needed as they still do not have a place to live, but still have to pay rent on their appartment because they could not get out of their lease which runs out in augest. they are living with my aunt right now, but my aunt has a huge huge dog, half doverman and half rotwiler. this dog is constantly jumping up on julie who is very pregnant and adam with his burnt hands. the stupid thing also takes food off the counter and stove, and has learned how to open doors. they feel and i agree it is not safe to have a baby in that house, which means of course, once the baby comes they have no place to put him. so please pray that they can find a place to live, and that everything with the baby turns out well. she is due in 21 days. and to those of you who hate walmart, would your place of employment raise and handover so much money to you?

men.

why is it that only the weirdest of weirdo's ever like me? guys, if you live 800 billion hours away, or if you are a tree hugger, if you are a druggie, or a plain old weirdo,if you have done hard time, or are going to do hard time, please i am begging you, reconsider before developing a thing for me, even before you decide to hit on me. please know that if you talk to me, i will want to smack you. as unChristian as that is, i jsut can't take it anymore. i mean really...who wants to save the whales anyway? nuke 'em.

well...

"hey nicole, how are you?" hmmm where should i start?
how about last weekend, may 24 long weekend...well, i was at aunt jane's house for thursday night-saterday night. i guess that would seem normal enough...except that saterday monring there was a super bad car accident on her lawn and a man died....and the kids saw as they were outside. the man stayed in the car on the lawn for 3 or 4 hours. then the corener came and the police took pictures. then as we were eating our burgers they finally started tryign to get him out, and ironically enough they had to use the jaws of "life".the kids are fairly messed up due to this incodent.
well then that evening i finally get to go home as the road has reopened. that night justin and his friends dalton and cody all stayed at their friend jakes house. at 1:10 am, while everyone was sleeping, there was a break and enter. the crazy man went to justin and dalton's room, woke them up by jumping on them and punching them in their heads, and kept them there for over an hour, telling them they have had life too easy and they need to suffer like he has. and trying to get them to go down to the river with him, while he was threatening them with a pair of pliars. the boys kept the man as calm as they could by talkign to him and asking him questions about himself, which is also how they found out his name and where he was staying. after he left the room he said he would be back, then went through the kitchen and the cupboards, and the fridge, and stole beer, and chocolate milk. after a while justin and dalton felt safe enough to wake up jake and cody, and together they woke up jake's parents, and ivy called 911. the man is being charged with break and enter, assult, and assult with a deadly weapon.
so then the week went pretty well, oh wait...did anyone hear about that appartment fire on brock street down town peterborough? oh, well there was one, yep. it was my pregnant cousin julie, and he fiance' adam's appartment. it was electrical. the smoke alarm of course, did not work. the only reason they woke up, was because the baby was kickign and kicking and so julie woke up and when she opened her eyes she couldn't see and at first she thought it was her eyes, then she realized it was smoke, and she woke up adam. he ran out into the rest of the appartment, and as soon as he opened the door the bedroom filled with smoke. he yelled at julie that they had to get out and as he was feeling his way out he bumped into a wall and has second degree burns on his hands, which may require surgery, he also has first degree burns on his face and ears. other than that and inhaling a lot of smoke which caused them to be on oxygen for 6 hours, they are all ok. the cats died, and the bird died, but the turtles are alive. everything is the appartment is gone, either burnt or destroyed by smoke. julie isn't dealing well at all. she isn't eating(not good since she is due in 34 days) and she is crying all the time. wal-mart(where adam is a manager) had a bbq todya nd i think tomorrow for them, and have jars set up in the stores to raise money for them, and 2 other walmarts from other places have donated 500$ each to them.
today i found out that my grandma may only have a couple months to live, not the year or two that was once expected.
please keep my family in your prayers, especially julie and adam and the baby. please also pray for the man who caused the accident at my aunt's house. he is only 24, and he faces a lot now that this has all happened.
to answer my own question from the start, "i am doing well:) God is in control, and He saved adam and julie and the baby from a fire, my brother from a psycho, and my cousins from being hit by the car that smashed onto their front lawn, only meters from them. praise God!"
thank you all for reading, and for your prayers.

update

well, last week my mom had a doctors appointment with a doctor whos job it is to diagnose weird things. so, we found out she has a weird strain of chronic fatigue syndrom. is this better or worse than ms? who knows? at least she has answers now, and she has learned there is nothing they can do to help her, except she can stay on celexa to help because chronic fatigue syndrom has to do with nerves.

on wednesday both of my grandparents have doctor's appointments again. grandma goes to st joe's in ptbo' to an oncologist to find out if there is anymore he can do for her to help prolong her life longer than the year she has been given. grandpa goes to princess margeret in TO. last time no cancer cells showed up in his bone marrow, however since they have the ability to hide he could very well have his cancer back. it would be so awesome if he went there and was told his blood was going back up on its own now that he is off the glevax(new cancer drug). please be praying that both of my grandparents get good news on wednesday.

i am doing ok. i am still not exactly healthy, but am better. i have a couple more appointments left and hopefully i am better by then, if not i have to go on pills. please be praying for me as well. i really don't wnat to have to take medication everyday for the rest of my life. spiritually i am doing a lot better. it is sad though that it takes going through hard times for me to realize i need God. why couldn't i have just realized before? it feels as though i have wasted so much time. its nice having belinda home. i miss her when she is away at school. i actually have someone to go for walks with now, its so yay!
thank you all for your prayers and i hope things are going well for you all.

its a great day to be alive

i had a great day today:) God is awesome, and he puts amazing people in our lives. Thank you LORD! i am so thankful for my friends. i am sorry if i haven't made you all realize how much i really appreciate you. i hope you all are living your lives for God, and that you are praying for me to live mine for Him as well:)

my brother's friend's dad has cancer. he goes to kingston on wednesday. he has a huge farm and 5 kids age 10-19. please keep him in your prayers, his name is john. also please continue to pray for my grandparents, and my cousin, and my friend's mom with breast cancer. thank you!

an old friend, a new start?

yesterday i went to pick up a few groceries with my mom in peterborough. as we were going to the check out i hear a voice i rcognize yell hey hows it going? i turned around and saw him, it took me a second to realize who it was, but when i did i was slightly shocked, but was glad to see him. it was my best friend from when i was younger. his name is adam bell. we were inseperable when we were younger, and did so much together, he was a year younger than me, but got much higher marks. he was also an amazing hockey player. when i was in grade 6, and he in grade 5 adam started doing drugs. weed at first of course, i remember one day he was really sick on the bus because he had had too much so i sat with hima nd took care of him. he started hanging out with boys in my grade, and started drinking and smoking. by about grade 7 he was in to drugs pretty badly. he dropped out of school second semester of grade 9, after skipping most of the first semester. this is when our friendship really ended. he started dong heavier drugs, and pretty frequently, speed i believe was the first heavy drug he got into. the next year something bad happened between us, and thats when i realized the adorable little boy who wore track suits and glasses, and loved the pitsburg penguines had passed, and this other boy had taken over his body. at that point i begged him to stop what he was doing, and to change for himself, but he was more into what his "friends" thought of him. he always wanted to be cool. i guess you could say he is popular now...he is wanted at least, by the police that is. he has been on the run for a few years now, i can't say where. this is why i was shocked to see him. he doesn't come back to hastings now, cuz he would be murdered because he was a cocain dealer and screwed over a lot of people, who would love to see him dead, and who wouldn't be affraid to kill him. he looks amazing now. i know he isn't on drugs anymore. i couldn't believe how wodnerfull he looked, it made me smile. he had a sparkle back in his eye, and i could tell because he actually looked me in the eye for the first time in many many years. he has made a good life for himself where he is living. he has a good job, and is even getting married, apparently soon. i am proud of him for turning his life around. and i hope he doesn't get caught by the cops, cuz i nkow there are people waiting for him in jail, people who are already in there so why do they care if they kill him. he dind't do anything really bad, just a lot of little things, and then this whole running thing, which i understand he had to do. i love my friend very much, no matter what he did to me, to anyone else, or to himself. please pray that God saves him, and his fiance. i forget her name. adam was really the first one in this town to get into really heavy drugs, but now they run rampid. i hugged adam, and i congratulated him on getting married. i know he knows the hug said more than that. he knows i love him and am proud of him. i am glad God brought us together yesterday.

who can beat this thing cancer?

"where would i be...what would i do if you werent here?" "you'll never have to worry about that."

well they are taking my grandpa off the glevax. they think the leukemia is back, even though they have found no blast cells, cuz sometimes they hide. so that news sucks bad. also, grandma hasn't heard from the other cancer doctor, which i think means that there is nothing more they can do. and that sucks too. but on top of that, my cousin on the same side of the family has his white cells very very high, which signals cancer, or another serious disease. he is having tests done on his stomach and bowels. he is the the only cousin i have older than me, he is 29. my mom and her sisters are being tested for the type of cancer their mom and grandmother have or died from, and if even one of them has it then all of us grandkids will be involved in genetic testing...whatever that means. please keep my family in your prayers. a long time ago, when my grandpa first foun out he has leukemia, he started a journal, and i remember on one page he wrote on the top "i will beat this thing cancer". what is this thing cancer anyway? and can anyone ever really beat it?