update

well this week was fairly brutal. first off, my brother's girlfriend broke up with him. this was monday and he was just toatlly wrecked. he was balling his eyes out while laying on my mom's bed with my mom holding him. this was something i hadn't seen before....and its not like we don't know loss, a lot of our friends have died but i have never witnessed a reaction like this from him before. i of course balled my eyes out a lot. i love her so much and her 3 year old son, and i missed them the second i found out. they are now, back together. the breakup only lasted a couple of days, and they were back together friday evening. i have a feeling things will be better now than ever, because she is oging to talk to him instead of push him away wehn things aren't right. so then i got to stop crying and my blood pressure returned to normal. and today i got to see her and give her a big hug...man i love that girl. anyway, on wednesday we found out that my grandma only has maybe a month, or maybe more to live...not long anyway. the cancer had gone crazy in her and spread everywhere, including more on her liver. she is taking a chemo pill that will hopefully shrink the big ones enough to make her more comfortable so that she can die with a little less pain. that seems kinda' sucky to me...pretty freaking sad. anyway, things are looking a bit better here now, aside from my grandma. my grandpa will be taking some sort of experimental cancer drug in a couple weeks. he will be the first man in canada to get it so thats pretty cool. please keep them and us in your prayers. anyway i hope all your lives are going well. keep growing:) love you all.

thanks

thank you if anyone prayed.

prayer please

my family is going through some really difficult things right now...please pray for us...a lot...please, especially my brother who is 21, as well as my grandparents, thank you.

baby st john has arrived!

well julie had her baby! it was a boy of course, and i assume his name is still dradon. he weighed 10 pounds!!! they induced her yesterday morning cuz they knew he was goign to be big, and he just wasn't comming out so they did a c section last night after 10 sometime. its pretty exciting he is the first gret grandchild in our family. anyway i am at my aunt's house baby sitting, i'll prolly have more to update on thursday night when i get home. hope you are all doing well, and enjoying your summers.

summer fun

well, this summer is shaping up to be interesting if nothing else. grandma will be starting chemo soon i think, unless its too late. grandpa is starting his new drug, but first they are pulling out all his teeth. julie still hasn't had her baby, he is a week and a day overdue. i will be at jane's house for most of the summer....pretty much everyday, its supposed to be babysitting, but in reality its making breakfast and lunch for the kids and dinner for the whole family, cleaning, laundry, baking, and the last day i was there last week she handed me this itinerary for an expencive kids camp, and asked me to do all the things with her kids that they would have been doing at camp. :S 3 boys 3, 7, and 10. working there and living there all week is just crazy and it drains me of every bit of energy i have. except that, someone asked my mom if i would put my resume in at a restaurant here. so my mom said yes i would. so if i get this job i would be working there every day that i am not working at jane's likely. so basically i will be working 24 hours a days for 3-5 days a week, and then i will come home and go to work someplace else....is it just me or does this seem crazy? oh and before i forget, my aunt still hasn't paid me for the last week, and one day for the week before that, so i still have zero dollars. pretty sure this is going to be the worst summer ever. hope everyone else has time to take a shower and a deep breath, cuz i sure don't.