well...

"hey nicole, how are you?" hmmm where should i start?
how about last weekend, may 24 long weekend...well, i was at aunt jane's house for thursday night-saterday night. i guess that would seem normal enough...except that saterday monring there was a super bad car accident on her lawn and a man died....and the kids saw as they were outside. the man stayed in the car on the lawn for 3 or 4 hours. then the corener came and the police took pictures. then as we were eating our burgers they finally started tryign to get him out, and ironically enough they had to use the jaws of "life".the kids are fairly messed up due to this incodent.
well then that evening i finally get to go home as the road has reopened. that night justin and his friends dalton and cody all stayed at their friend jakes house. at 1:10 am, while everyone was sleeping, there was a break and enter. the crazy man went to justin and dalton's room, woke them up by jumping on them and punching them in their heads, and kept them there for over an hour, telling them they have had life too easy and they need to suffer like he has. and trying to get them to go down to the river with him, while he was threatening them with a pair of pliars. the boys kept the man as calm as they could by talkign to him and asking him questions about himself, which is also how they found out his name and where he was staying. after he left the room he said he would be back, then went through the kitchen and the cupboards, and the fridge, and stole beer, and chocolate milk. after a while justin and dalton felt safe enough to wake up jake and cody, and together they woke up jake's parents, and ivy called 911. the man is being charged with break and enter, assult, and assult with a deadly weapon.
so then the week went pretty well, oh wait...did anyone hear about that appartment fire on brock street down town peterborough? oh, well there was one, yep. it was my pregnant cousin julie, and he fiance' adam's appartment. it was electrical. the smoke alarm of course, did not work. the only reason they woke up, was because the baby was kickign and kicking and so julie woke up and when she opened her eyes she couldn't see and at first she thought it was her eyes, then she realized it was smoke, and she woke up adam. he ran out into the rest of the appartment, and as soon as he opened the door the bedroom filled with smoke. he yelled at julie that they had to get out and as he was feeling his way out he bumped into a wall and has second degree burns on his hands, which may require surgery, he also has first degree burns on his face and ears. other than that and inhaling a lot of smoke which caused them to be on oxygen for 6 hours, they are all ok. the cats died, and the bird died, but the turtles are alive. everything is the appartment is gone, either burnt or destroyed by smoke. julie isn't dealing well at all. she isn't eating(not good since she is due in 34 days) and she is crying all the time. wal-mart(where adam is a manager) had a bbq todya nd i think tomorrow for them, and have jars set up in the stores to raise money for them, and 2 other walmarts from other places have donated 500$ each to them.
today i found out that my grandma may only have a couple months to live, not the year or two that was once expected.
please keep my family in your prayers, especially julie and adam and the baby. please also pray for the man who caused the accident at my aunt's house. he is only 24, and he faces a lot now that this has all happened.
to answer my own question from the start, "i am doing well:) God is in control, and He saved adam and julie and the baby from a fire, my brother from a psycho, and my cousins from being hit by the car that smashed onto their front lawn, only meters from them. praise God!"
thank you all for reading, and for your prayers.

update

well, last week my mom had a doctors appointment with a doctor whos job it is to diagnose weird things. so, we found out she has a weird strain of chronic fatigue syndrom. is this better or worse than ms? who knows? at least she has answers now, and she has learned there is nothing they can do to help her, except she can stay on celexa to help because chronic fatigue syndrom has to do with nerves.

on wednesday both of my grandparents have doctor's appointments again. grandma goes to st joe's in ptbo' to an oncologist to find out if there is anymore he can do for her to help prolong her life longer than the year she has been given. grandpa goes to princess margeret in TO. last time no cancer cells showed up in his bone marrow, however since they have the ability to hide he could very well have his cancer back. it would be so awesome if he went there and was told his blood was going back up on its own now that he is off the glevax(new cancer drug). please be praying that both of my grandparents get good news on wednesday.

i am doing ok. i am still not exactly healthy, but am better. i have a couple more appointments left and hopefully i am better by then, if not i have to go on pills. please be praying for me as well. i really don't wnat to have to take medication everyday for the rest of my life. spiritually i am doing a lot better. it is sad though that it takes going through hard times for me to realize i need God. why couldn't i have just realized before? it feels as though i have wasted so much time. its nice having belinda home. i miss her when she is away at school. i actually have someone to go for walks with now, its so yay!
thank you all for your prayers and i hope things are going well for you all.

its a great day to be alive

i had a great day today:) God is awesome, and he puts amazing people in our lives. Thank you LORD! i am so thankful for my friends. i am sorry if i haven't made you all realize how much i really appreciate you. i hope you all are living your lives for God, and that you are praying for me to live mine for Him as well:)

my brother's friend's dad has cancer. he goes to kingston on wednesday. he has a huge farm and 5 kids age 10-19. please keep him in your prayers, his name is john. also please continue to pray for my grandparents, and my cousin, and my friend's mom with breast cancer. thank you!

an old friend, a new start?

yesterday i went to pick up a few groceries with my mom in peterborough. as we were going to the check out i hear a voice i rcognize yell hey hows it going? i turned around and saw him, it took me a second to realize who it was, but when i did i was slightly shocked, but was glad to see him. it was my best friend from when i was younger. his name is adam bell. we were inseperable when we were younger, and did so much together, he was a year younger than me, but got much higher marks. he was also an amazing hockey player. when i was in grade 6, and he in grade 5 adam started doing drugs. weed at first of course, i remember one day he was really sick on the bus because he had had too much so i sat with hima nd took care of him. he started hanging out with boys in my grade, and started drinking and smoking. by about grade 7 he was in to drugs pretty badly. he dropped out of school second semester of grade 9, after skipping most of the first semester. this is when our friendship really ended. he started dong heavier drugs, and pretty frequently, speed i believe was the first heavy drug he got into. the next year something bad happened between us, and thats when i realized the adorable little boy who wore track suits and glasses, and loved the pitsburg penguines had passed, and this other boy had taken over his body. at that point i begged him to stop what he was doing, and to change for himself, but he was more into what his "friends" thought of him. he always wanted to be cool. i guess you could say he is popular now...he is wanted at least, by the police that is. he has been on the run for a few years now, i can't say where. this is why i was shocked to see him. he doesn't come back to hastings now, cuz he would be murdered because he was a cocain dealer and screwed over a lot of people, who would love to see him dead, and who wouldn't be affraid to kill him. he looks amazing now. i know he isn't on drugs anymore. i couldn't believe how wodnerfull he looked, it made me smile. he had a sparkle back in his eye, and i could tell because he actually looked me in the eye for the first time in many many years. he has made a good life for himself where he is living. he has a good job, and is even getting married, apparently soon. i am proud of him for turning his life around. and i hope he doesn't get caught by the cops, cuz i nkow there are people waiting for him in jail, people who are already in there so why do they care if they kill him. he dind't do anything really bad, just a lot of little things, and then this whole running thing, which i understand he had to do. i love my friend very much, no matter what he did to me, to anyone else, or to himself. please pray that God saves him, and his fiance. i forget her name. adam was really the first one in this town to get into really heavy drugs, but now they run rampid. i hugged adam, and i congratulated him on getting married. i know he knows the hug said more than that. he knows i love him and am proud of him. i am glad God brought us together yesterday.

who can beat this thing cancer?

"where would i be...what would i do if you werent here?" "you'll never have to worry about that."

well they are taking my grandpa off the glevax. they think the leukemia is back, even though they have found no blast cells, cuz sometimes they hide. so that news sucks bad. also, grandma hasn't heard from the other cancer doctor, which i think means that there is nothing more they can do. and that sucks too. but on top of that, my cousin on the same side of the family has his white cells very very high, which signals cancer, or another serious disease. he is having tests done on his stomach and bowels. he is the the only cousin i have older than me, he is 29. my mom and her sisters are being tested for the type of cancer their mom and grandmother have or died from, and if even one of them has it then all of us grandkids will be involved in genetic testing...whatever that means. please keep my family in your prayers. a long time ago, when my grandpa first foun out he has leukemia, he started a journal, and i remember on one page he wrote on the top "i will beat this thing cancer". what is this thing cancer anyway? and can anyone ever really beat it?

:)

how can i not smile? :)