stress

ok so i am still finishing up my work. and i am trying to find an internship...which sucks when you live in a little pit and you can't drive to get someplace thats not a pit. and i am stressing out over trying to find way to be able to get to lindsay's and back all summer for her wedding and for fittings and stuff. life is 100% pure stress....i am begining to think that there really aren't many happy moments at all....like maybe every person gets between 2 and 12 in their whole lifetime. i hope i am the person who gets 12...but i am thinking i am the person who gets 2. well at least i am running again...then maybe i can be a little better looking and unhappy. if you are having a happy moment people, enjoy it! it might be your very last one ever. mother's day is tomorrow. that day to me feels like hey nicole this is the day people would be celebrating for you if you weren't a failure. i know God has a plan for me...but really...i think i am honestly gonna' be the woman throwing cats and laughing out whooo whoo whooo whooo whoo whoo whoo whoo heh. blah.