wow...God is amazing!

ok so...i guess all i can say is...forgiveness is an amazing concept. recently i have been going through some trying times....and a couple days ago...they got much much worse. i foudn out some things...that are very unfortunate...anyway...i was so so so angry with chad for the things i had learned...because those things...were very very terrible. i wanted to go beat him up and all the rest of the stuff you feel when you feel completely violated and used. but then suddenly something popped into my head. i told chad one day that i forgive him for everything, even the stuff i dont know...so...how is it i could just change my mind now that i know the stuff? and BAM i forgave him. how imposisble is that? very....cuz trust me the stuff was not pleasent. how amazing that God just...put the forgiveness there! God is so incredible! there was no process it was just like God said, alright you are going to forgive him right now, and the anger was gone! at first i thoguth id keep it to myself because i didn't want to boast that i could forgive...but the thing is i didn't forgive...i was mad and God just took away the anger and...put the forgiveness there. he replaced the madness with an absolutely incredible peace. i cant even describe it. i feel more content now than i ever have in all my life. i feel as though God is standing with His hands on my shoulders! God is so amazing, and so loving. i have not been as faithful through all this as i shoudl have been...and look how He takes care of me anyway! keep praying for chad, pray that God will reveal Himself to him, and show him how much He really loves him. pray that he understand that God raelly loves us so much that He sent Jesus to die for us, knowing we were gonna mess up! The kind of love God has for us is NOT based on our actions in anyway, and no matter what we do He is going to love us anyway! pray God will show this to chad in such a way that chad has to get it. also please continue to pray for me, that God continues to give me this incredible strangth and peace and contentment! and our friend joel who is going through hard times.

now here is a lesson i have learned through all this. people are watching us. our actions do not only effect us, but the people around us as well. my choosing to do the things with chad that i did, effected him too, not jsut me. also we need to nurture other people's faith. sure we may not be responsible for other people's decisions, but we do have the ability to help....or hinder them. lets not let satan use our actions to hurt other people. and remember it is our job to love, not to judge.

man God sure loves His little ones! in a way none of us can understand! and who cares who feels its their place to judge me? God knows best, and He is my daddy, and He is in control of my life, and those people cannot take Him away from me, or me away from Him!