a poem about b

She does not sleep, she walks with Him.

She left the earth with a new life to begin.

Her smile is bigger now than it has ever been.

The sun shines brighter than she has ever seen.

The pain is gone, it doesn't hurt anymore.

She is happy now, of this we can be sure.

And yes we will miss her for the rest of our lives.

We will think of her fondly, we'll smile and cry.

But no one can take the memories we hold in our hearts.

She will live deep inside us until we too part.

We will hold tight to each thought until our last breath is due.

Then we will see her again and walk with Him too.

So, although she's not here and it hurts to carry on.

Just because we can't see her doesn't mean she is gone.

When tears fill your eyes and your heart grows dim.

Just remember,

She does not sleep, she walks with Him.

memories

22 years and 4 months. thats how long i've known you. thats pretty much our entire lives. i can't even imagine what it would have been like without you. you were part of everything. i remember when i first met you E invited me over to play with you and i was so excited to make my first friend since moving. i think we were pretty much inseparable from that point on. you knew all my secrets...not that you always kept them secret! when i try to think of our good times my head nearly explodes because there are so many. i love you more than im supposed to i think. you're the only "sister" i have ever had. i remember when you mom paid me to babysit you guys...that was fun...i got paid to hang out with my best friend. i also got paid to baby sit someone taller than me...haha. those were good days...prank calls, zoodles and grilled cheese. so many good times were had in the pool too..."geek down the street" wearing a life jacket even though he could touch! playing mermaids, swapping bathing suits, swimming laps, you being the only one tall enough to get the ladder down...and my favourite...you changing outside! remember the slip and slide? didn't even last a whole summer and your parents took it away. boo. remember playing in the sandbox? making terrible mixtures and trying to get katy to eat it? i think some of my favourite times with you when we were little was playing barbies. i loved barbies! and cabbage patch dolls. remember when we both fit on the small circle couch? i was sad to see that gem go! best couch ever. i know your favourite was uno...but if i recall correctly its because you pretty much always won. remember trick-or-treating? all those other schmucks walking and my dad driving us around...ha. remember freeze pops? yum! i will so never forget you driving your bike so fast the training wheels came flying off. oh my gosh and riding the wagon down the hill! ...and the picking of the rocks from my chin when i crashed it. i also remember you guys had the best back yard. like 4 swing sets and the pool and the sand box and the climbing tire. then as we got too old for that the trampoline came! didn't the boys jump off the garage roof onto it? man we were nuts. remember sneak swimming in the river so your parents didnt get mad that we weren't in the pool? remember singing together? praying together? the opening of fishing season! sleeping in the car...you being real drunk. remember me threatening to throw that one guy in the river if he didn't leave you alone?! remember me being banned form being your date because holly hated me after i threatened to beat her up when you were in grade 8? remember going for runs together but i was slow and you were fast so you would jog ahead and come back? remember when we took the grandprix and you drove it into a tree at the movie store?! remember watching mike dance?! remember when he had a crush on me? :P oh boy. remember that time you got hurt playing rugby? i cried so much and had to play while crying haha. remember when my hair got chopped off and you put your clips in it to make it pretty? :) strip poker in my basement? sharing a slushy. sitting on the bench down town with a cosmo. banana popsicles. that time you insisted you would not burn, you put on a bikini and sat in the sun all day at my trailer...yeah you burned real nice. remember the time your daddy made US clean the pool after winter? man that was SICK. remember tuesdays and fridays figure skating and saturday morning bowling. remember our many crushes on like everyone! remember the fort? watching the boys play road hockey? me being in bed naked and you coming over and sitting on the end of it talking to me? remember always meeting and parting at the corner? the caterpillar tree?? ew. remember me always making you carry me? dirty dancing at school dances...and the teen dances! remember spending 7$ at Christmas? remember when we went away to school? and didn't see each other much anymore? :( remember talking on the phone when we could find time? remember when you told me they found tumors in your lungs and we cried in the parking lot at the mall... remember when you drove here for my birthday to surprise me? best birthday present ever. remember exploding chocolate sauce and me laughing in hysterics on the phone...then raymond having to clean it up...his punishment for making a terrible casserole. remember the best dance ever? remember the most wonderful lunch at reggies? so many more memories to come. God is in control. thank you for being my "sister" thank you for being part of everything in my life. i've never been so scared and so content at the same time. God really is in control. i love you belinda. my life would have been absolute crap without you.

not so bad...not so bad.

today i decided i like not being married, and i like not having kids. for now at least. i get to hang out with my friends whenever i want and i can fly by the seat of my pants. example, tonight i am having a mac and cheese party. woot.

people still read blogs?

so i guess i can give a little update to those who don't care about facebook:P plus i discovered people still read these? craziness! anyway, belinda's real sick and needs your prayers. a lot. anytime you are like hmm what should i do....pray for her. there is a "we love belinda" facebook site you can go on for news of whats happening. in other news, my parents house burned...that sucks real bad. its been a pretty stressful summer all in all, belinda and i had a lunch date the other day, she asked me how my summer was going and i laughed and asked her how hers was going...stupid cancer. its such an ass hole. oh, but one kinda funny thing that came from our house burning was hearing my mom say the f word...pretty funny. some good things have happened this summer too, got to meet some new friends and thats always wonderful....its interesting how God brings people into our lives at just the right time. also discovered the kubo lounge on george street...its pretty nice in there. cute bartender:P i think this summer has been full of insane changes, some good...some really good.....but most just feel terrible. for those of you who do not know, my bother and amanda are having a baby! guess i have to re-vamp that old poem i wrote about them. im pretty excited.... however...my brother and avery really think the baby should be named leroy if its a boy....good grief. i hope amanda bans them form picking names:P you can creep my facebook if you want to see pictures of this summer. thanks for reading! remember to keep us all in your prayers, we need it. love you guys:) xo <3

Belinda

Dear readers;

It seems as though my friend Belinda is sick, and going through a lot of tests right now. She is at Sunnybrook hospital in TO and needs your prayers. She has some large masses in her lungs. She had her biopsy done today, and is also getting her bone marrow tested tomorrow. I will update you as we find out more, but please be praying for her and her family. She is 23 and beautiful. She is young and strong thank goodness. She was engaged this past summer, and has been running in marathons. She really needs your prayers. Please spread the word. Also pray for her Family and Friends and her Fiance Ray. Thank you so much.