pray time please

things are just getting really hard, and everything is confusing. i dont think i have every felt so many emotions at once before. my grandma has about a month left i think, and so thats rough. also all my emotions about other people and other things, my grandpa being so sick, and my brother almost dying, and amanda and jeffrey breaking up, and some other things....its just too hard. everything seems too hard. i think i have pretty much just given up because i just cant deal with things alone anymore. so please pray for me, and for my family because they are so stressed out trying to make all the final arrangements with my grandma and cleaning out the house and stuff. pretty much right now nothing means anything, i often hate everything and everyone, and i don't even cry anymore its just like...fine i give up. i have a hard time trusting anyone anymore...at all...and so thats proving to be a huge challenge right now. i have no idea what i want to do with my life, i have no job right now, and most days i don't even want to go out of my room. i have noticed that i really care what people think now, and that bothers me a lot. it like actualy makes me sad when people don't like me...even if their reasons are retarded. i feel totally inadequate. i never felt like this before, i coudn't have cared less what people thought of me. it just feels like everything is caving in around me, and i just don't care enough to fight anymore. i just give up. and i feel stupid all the time. so plese pray for me.