fabulous!

ok so totally fabulous night! i was talking to someone i thought it was going to be rought to talk to and God just opened my eyes up! i feel so content and fabulous! God is awesome!!! that is all i need to say, God is awesome! i don't fit a mould...but neither did martin luther. i like me, all of me. JESUS I TRUST IN YOU ALONE! good night everyone.

i am laying in bed

so i am laying here and i decided to check my blog, and to my delight and amusment both dennis and val commented lol. awesome. thank you dennis... it is kinda' weird...and such a hard thing to grasp....knowing you are forgiven...for all the jerky things....man...i don't like a trillion everyday and i don't even notice. like now for example, and val this answers your question, am i ok, well i am ok. i jsut have no idea where my life is going or what i am supposed to be doing with it. its so difficult to have faith, and to know that it is in God's hands, and that i don't have to worry about it. worrying is a difficult habbit to kick. and its expecially hard when i look into my future and i have no idea what i see. i am ok, i jsut need to learn to have more faith. i am dealing with it again now, i thikn i sent you the email, but luke has no money, and he needs money and so i sent out an email to the people we know asking them to donate what they can, and i feel so like...people are just goign to think i am dumb and not help, but i know that even if they don't help its in God's hands, and luke is in God's hands as well. its jsut hard to really believe that for me for some reason. i hope things are well with you dennis and val, and with lael and the baby, and i hope things are well for whoever reads this. and remember everyone, God is in control...remember nicole, God is in control. i love you guys and i miss you. and sorry dennis i don't nkow what else to say about val that would be amusing...but i guess just making this blog directed to the two of you should help LOL. name this baby Acanthus, or Apple, or Buttercup, or Cotton, hahaha or any other names from this site http://www.alternativebabynames.com/index.php?goto=nature there are so many ridiculous names out there lol. if you are reading this julie, you shoudl name your baby form here too lol. i miss you val!

yep

life is just plain difficult. does anyone know what they are doing? or do they know whats going on? if any of you do, please tell me.

yay

well my brother's football team won COSSA today! that is the central ontario finals, and since its a junior team, that it! so they won it all! that was exciting! check the examiner tomorrow! i am going to see my new baby cousin tomorrow. his name is braydon and he was born on october 30, and was 4 lbs 2 ounces! so thats pretty exciting as well! remember to keep praying for luke in ecuador. love you all! especially you val! see i still got you in! lol.